For as long as I can remember food and self were in the center. I remember from a very young age being pulled to food and would often hide it and eat it in secret. My mother was very thin and so was the rest of the family. When my mom died at age 12, the outside force that helped me keep that weight down was removed, I came home every day and ate a half of box of cereal while watching a soap opera – this became a ritual as early as 8th grade and soon it started to show up quickly on my body. At the same time, I really missed my mom and there was no one around to point me upwards – I would get told all the time “I am not sure why you have it so hard.” “I hope you get to be happy again someday.” This was compounded with a year of “counseling” where I was told my father was this, my mother was this and I needed to express myself, I was treated unfair etc… I bought into it – hook, line and sinker. My whole life then began a search to get my needs met – to be fulfilled – to be taken care of. I became full of self-pity and greed for attention, prideful and self-centered. I do remember looking for God in a lot of places but never being able to grasp on to anything and the Bible seemed so intimidating – even if I would try to read it – I would not be able to understand it. I was not raised religious, but if I ever got invited to a service I would go – I longed to be around friends who had a faith because they seemed so lucky to be religious, but I never seemed to fit in anywhere.
At the age of 27 I walked into a church after being completely humbled – a relationship abruptly ended, lost my job etc. Within a week of attending this church a woman handed me a Weigh Down Diet Book. Little did I know that the answer to all my pain would be opened up through this book and the answers to how to be happy would be completely unveiled – I was about to learn how to love God with all my heart, soul, mind and strength and this book was about to open up the Word of God to me and show me how to walk it out. I had just won the spiritual lottery. That was in 1997 – and I often look back at receiving that book as the single most life-changing event in my life.
I started losing weight and I loved everything about WeighDown because the more I applied the principles the more I broke free. I did every class, had every audio etc. I loved it so much; I traveled to Desert Oasis in 2000 to hear Gwen Shamblin speak live. I was totally and completely blown away. I knew that what I was hearing was totally different and totally true–better than anything I had ever heard in my church or in my life. The Word of God was becoming so real and my mind began to grasp that the Bible was something that you could understand and LIVE.
From reading that book and staying in WeighDown classes, I have lost 55 lbs. and kept it off! I have learned and continue to put into practice hour by hour dependence on God. I look towards the goal of Heaven and feel I have thrown off the chains of the world and selfish ambition. My soul yearns to learn more and have more – humility, single focus, love and all the fruits of the Spirit. I credit anything of value that I have or have learned in my life to this message for it opened up the God’s Word and HOW to have a relationship with God to me so that I was able to live it, be changed by it and hopefully inspire others to want it to. God is everything!